Backwards

drinking coke for breakfast

staying out late

brown eyes

that smile

your laugh

uh-oh

so scared

denial

safe only with you

pillows: at least 4 

my teddy bear

doctor visit

the glow of the monitor

the quiet. then...

bump, bump. bump, bump.

and then

bump,bump, bump, bump. bump, bump, bump, bump.

the sound that changed my life. 

clutching my hand

tears. silence. 

dont cry. oh, please dont look at me. dont see me cry.

the best hug ever. 

four hours

cant breath 

why are you touching me?

brown hair

your eyes. 

"you are so worth it"

 eat. sleep. work. 

quiet.

that smile.

all that hair. 

peanut toes. 

late night tv

cozy

crying

cuteness

stinky

fast, strong, messy

giggles

walks

grandpas house

late night snuggles

grass up your nose

more giggles

"what are you doing?"

riding a bike

spaghetti

grapes

bedtime stories

good friends

love

more love

late nights

scraping by

exhausted

your smiling face

learning

falling

fustration

well get through this-together

hugs

more hugs

sillyness

one more time

happiness

forgiveness

memories

where we are now

closer

stronger

family

teenager>to mom>to woman. 

i did it backwards. but i still got there. 

love got me there